Dang it

I never thought there’d be a day when I told myself “I’m killing time” - the strange affect of it, like, what, “I’m killing time (???)”

1/ Because I’m still having a checklist for stuff to do before the Lunar New Year starts swallowing me whole, the kind of list with small check-boxes for bullet points. I had one that reminds me to go to bed early since course registration for the last term starts the next day, and course registration at my university is a literal warzone. Some folks legit cried to their parents about not getting into the classes they wanted. Listen, it makes sense, cause they did mortgage half of their family’s property to get here anyways. For higher education, the math ain’t mathing. There I said it.

2/ I’m still munching on Hough’s book. Taking the time with it. Cause I knew I’d feel like I should be doing something else, something useful, had I not made myself feel like the day was passing with intent. Couldn’t say I’d recommend it to everyone because the language is strong, and there’re explicit details regarding sexual assaults, violence, and suicidal thoughts. But do give it a try if you have the balls (no gay puns intended).

3/ Discovered that there’s an entire culture behind letters of recommendation. The truth is, there are actually people with integrity - people who custom-make your letters and send them upfront to the admission departments without sending them over to you, meaning you’d not be reading those sugar-coated sentences that would either be an ultra-booster for your self-esteem, or nailing it all the way down to rock bottom. Other times, people would simply ask you to fake your own and all they have to do is to sign it.

4/ As a side note, I didn’t unsubscribe to J.J Mccullough’s channel cause I don’t want to hurt the feelings of somebody I don’t even know. The truth is I’m kind of attracted to his voice and mannerism as a political commentator (which is chroniqueur in French, see, I’m still learning French), and the fact that the man resents Quebec so much I felt like he’d probably attempt a coup as soon as he had the chance.

That said, my Mccullough love-hate affair reached its peak with a fan-cam posted on a channel called MapleSyrup_Productions. In the video, he is standing on the milk crate (so that folks could hear him better?) and answering a question about the relationship between the Canadian Government and Indigenous communities (and on establishing their own sovereignty and state). He did mention that his positionality (as a Caucasian male) refrains him from setting outright opinions. Green flag. Secondly, he believes the initiatives should be that of the Indigenous communities to foster in response to the gov’s constant state of ignorance and inaction. Another green flag.

But for now, he’d live in my brain rent-free as “that milk crate columnist.”

I will link the video here since the comment section is very interesting and informative to look at.